i love this man.i dont want a divorce.

"As long as I am in the clear with God, my family and my fans, it is sufficient for me." -Jay Park

i'm not good at expressing my feelings.

and so, these are some quotes that i think

will show what i feel right now.

frankly speaking, I went through the 5 stages of grief with this whole Jay controversy.

1. Denial

2. Anger.

3. Bargaining.

4. Depression.

5. Acceptance.

shortly said, it was 9 months of denial, anger and all negative thinkings of this issue.

since he left 2pm.since last sept 8th,

i bet i was very much in denial.

i couldnt accept that he wont be with the other 2pm boys.

singing, dancing, playing, acting dorky together and have fun like i watched in wild bunny.

i miss his duet with junsu.

i miss his korean fail and how nichkhun's korean is soo much better than him.

i miss his goofy side with taecyeon.

i miss his cute attempts and funny moments with wooyoung.

i miss the time when he has to play with chansung and ended up being bullied by him.

i miss those moments.

and i was too angry to realize that i wont see them together anymore.

and i'm totally depressed after knowing that u're officially out of 2pm.

but, u brought back the sunshine by putting up your cover on youtube.

keep in touch with us through ur youtube and twitter.

man, i've never feel so attached to someone like you, someone that i've never meet in real life.

9 months had passed.

i assume that i can say now that you're growing towards the success.

and the biggest point here,u're going back to korea.

i've never think that it could be a major event in ur life but now it seems to.

and i can feel ur anxiety after reading your letter.

it seems that u got thousand of flying butterflies in ur stomach.

dont worry jay.

u got us.

and ive never been so proud to be someone's fan as i have now.

it was a painful journey but u make it SO worth it.

so, after all of the roller coaster ride, I can now officially say I’m at stage 5.

I NEVER wanna go through this again. But if its not Jay its bound to be somebody else in the future.

this is just the beginning:)